I am a total B*tch

Really I am..

yesterday I was drunk... very drunk..
I have a hangover and I dont know what I did wrong.. My friends are hating me and I really dont know why.
I think the booze took controle over me.

I know what I did before the Birthday party and after... ( what I dont want to talk about.. the after part..)But I dont know what I did in between..

I know I was at my ex place..

We were baking cookies... we also flirting a lot..
We know we shouln't do that..
But we did..

We want it.. and after a bottle of wine.. we did it...

You know what.

I am not feeling sorry for what I did with my ex.. it had to come.. we were atracting to each other...

then I went to the party.. I was alreaddy drunk.. badly..
They say I did something stupid.. selfish.. a total BITCH.

the thing is.. I dont know what I did wrong.. and that is very confusing me.

they are mad.. my friends.. I want to say Im sorry for what I did.. but I really dont know what I did.. and I am really SORRY..

Now I feel alone .. Im not alone.. but it feels that way.. i am losing friends..
friends that are close to me..